I say try, try, try, not to cry, cry cry

yesterday I learned that since Cameron I cry watching tv shows- movies- etc.

I cried twice during greys anatomy. To those who are also addicted to the show, I am talking about when the little boy was dying and they asked the mom to leave the room so they could "work on him" (omg!- I could never- ever-ever-ever leave) second, when they said "it's time to hold him" when he was "going" (omg omg!- how do you do that? how the heck do you hold your child knowing that it's going to be the last moment you get to do so.. ah!)
so yes- I was a wreck!

then to top off the evening, I was watching private practice. To be brief, a woman was having a baby and decided that she wanted to give him up for adoption upon birth and she chose not to see the baby. Well, the baby was born and needed surgery and the adoptive parents bailed on the deal... yada yada drama unfolds... after the surgery the mom who just gave birth decided she wants to see the baby because she doesn't want him to be alone and scared ( here's where i began to cry..) then once she see's the baby she ( after just having a c-section and is clearly hurting..) quickly rises from her wheel chair in awe of the baby ( and here's when I cried like one)

lastly, in recapping to my mother why i'm such a mess and just simply telling her essentially what I just wrote.. I cried again!